So we talked of fears amidst tears which enveloped our souls silly.

Anyway I went cycling from East Coast to Changi with her. At the end of it all, at 2 blazing pm we jumped into the sea and laughed our hearts out and trying hard to drown her. I am very red now.

As she closed the windows and packed my bag for me, filled the bottle and reminded me of everything, Kyun managed to slip in the sweetest thing, I found when I came back and pulled my keyboard.
A post it with "I Love You (: " on the top corner.

This is the person I see every single day, being sent to and from school, playing arcade and singing songs and have deep conversations and simply staring at each other while screaming and twirling and racing across the streets, 'whispers' in the ears and of course the innocent romp now and then.

School has been rather busy but I managed time with many other things. I'm scrimping a lot and her presto I'm attending a free photography workshop with guest speaker Karin Geiger and we're hitting Chinatown for photos and shopping for her.
Excited much with life.

ofblack&white
11:58 PM

It is scary what I wouldn't do, and what I would do with you. Sometimes boundaries get blurry going about definitions and denying. I don't know how further there is to go but one thing for sure it does put a lot of meaning to cliches and suddenly life becomes full of it. If the presence of one is felt every, single day, how do you think one would fair with the other not around? Dependence, whether emotionally or physically, is rather scary, like walking on clouds not knowing where the next step will bring you.
Sometimes I dream of fears and being let known fear. Waking up to warm arms and closeness does soothe the nightmare, but sometimes it takes a long while to get over the shakiness of trespassing reality into dreams.

Strange days, but it was good talking it out with you.

ofblack&white
8:40 PM

Ohh there's something I am glad for, that is webcams. I love love webcamming with Kyun and almost playing charades that way.

It's going to be a financially tough year this 2010. If all goes well we'll be off to my sunny island Tioman in March. If all goes well, she'll be off for exchange over the States and I do plan to visit her there after my exams end (which is June 10 bitch). I have the urge to explore the States (and of course I think I'll die if I'm away for too long).
Plus finally resume driving, or else I'm never going to take it. The only motivation is that I can use the car and it'll be easy for both me and you, no matter how close we stay.
And also, even the Mother asked if I wanted Photography Classes. I really badly do. It is really costly though, 250 for 6 lessons with 3 field trips.
I want to have much more experience with the Canonet. Which obviously spells money, because developing film into a cd is 8$ and film is 4$. That's for 12 dollars foir 36 frames.
You know how trigger-happy I can be.

But otherwise, no qualms about 2010. I'm going to start working, save up money like an old woman, try moving out by 2015 (renting apartments I guess, could be a bitch but it beats buying) with the money. But everyone knows I spend like water. So it's up to the girlfriend to take all my money and dump them where money can grow.

Also focusing hard on my units, which can be quite hard seeing how distracted I can be. No matter! I can do it (:

ofblack&white
10:31 AM

Oit! I'm officially not blogging on this anymore, only little snippets. I've moved permanently onto another place but it's for a few to know and none to find out.

(: Really the time of my life.

ofblack&white
12:36 PM

I turned 21 (finally) and I am verily touched by all of their gestures. ((:

On the day itself I had lunch with Katbaby Glenda Dewi and Andi! Sarpino's was awesome and each of them gave me something cute. Purple Post-Its and a sweet letter+card+photo from Andi, Katbaby gave me the cutest-looking sweets plus small sized donuts!! A very adorable photo-holder from Glenda and a purple bear from the Indonesian.
What's with the purple colour.... -.-

Kyun fetched me from the mrt station and brought me to our secret place: the rooftop terrace. And there was a guitar, roses, and a bottle of white stars with 21 red ones. I just died, it was so so romantic; beneath the pavilion with the rain all around us. Oh my gosh, what a day! She read me a letter she wrote and sang me a song, because I've been bugging her to sing me something for my birthday. IT WAS THE SWEETEST SONG.
Stayed for quite a long while before heading to the airpork for dinner. Kyun got me a cake and started singing, much to my embarrassment the person who sat next to our table started singing too. (: I love you so very much, despite what you wrote in the red stars ._.

Just past Friday I went out with Indah Osha Az Elf Mima and Kyun to bowl, chat and have dinner at Simpang. They annoyingly gave me an encyclopedia of cats and The Holocaust. WITH PICTURES. Omg I swooned like mad and they recorded it. There goes my face.

((: Pasir Ris Park screaming and ohh POLAROIDS I LOVE.
Don't know what I did to deserve such an understanding and sweet, so caring and funny person, but I'm not letting her go ~

ofblack&white
8:10 PM

It's been long since I wrote something here! I've been all angsty and whatnot past few months but I've been terribly terribly happy too. School started, gotten closer to a great bunch of people and life is going on so well right now actually. There's so much that has happened I don't know where to start but most importantly,

Hi Kyun (: You make me so very happy.

ofblack&white
12:25 AM

Hello! Disappeared for quite a while and hey ho,

I am having quite the ball of my life. With you, with her, with everyone else.
Some disappointments and niggly feelings but nothing friends can not cure. 

Alright, time to shower for a nice tomorrow.

(: &d

ofblack&white
9:40 PM